Pregnancy after loss is never easy: and, in my case, as a lifelong tokophobia sufferer (It's a phobia of pregnancy and/or childbirth, just in case you're wondering...), falling pregnant with my son, Max, was just about the most terrifying thing I'd ever been through. This week by week pregnancy diary documents my experience in painstaking detail: and - spoiler alert - the story has a very happy ending, thankfully...