Hi, I'm Amber.
When my husband was diagnosed with kidney failure, I started a blog, and found my tribe: the introverts, the over-thinkers, the anxious girls… they were all out there on the internet, and talking to them through my blog helped me feel a little bit less alone.
How did I do all of this, in spite of my innate awkwardness? Well, the eyelashes are anyone’s guess, really, but the rest of it is all down to blogging, finding my tribe, and building my confidence because of it. And now I’m hoping to do the same for you.
This blog is for the over-thinkers and the perennially anxious : for the misfits and the introverts, and for anyone else who’s ever felt like they don’t quite fit in. It’s about honest parenthood, real-life issues, and, making life a little bit less awkward, one blog post at a time. It’s the award girl’s guide to… well, everything, really: from parenting to beauty products, and from travel to making a living online: if there’s a way to make it awkward, I’ll find it – and then I’ll share it with you.
On December 15, 2003, Terry and I got engaged on the banks of the Grand Canyon, while holidaying in Las Vegas.
Two weeks later, on boxing day of that year, Terry was diagnosed with end-stage renal failure, and told that, without immediate treatment, he had just two weeks to live. It wasn’t the best Christmas we’ve ever had, all things considered.
Unable to continue with the day job, Terry started a web design business from his dialysis chair. As for me, meanwhile, I finally took the hint that it was time to leave the office job I hated, and start building a life that didn’t make me cry in the shower every morning at the thought of going into work. Freelance writing turned into freelance blogging, and pretty soon I realised that, instead of getting paid to write for other people, I could get paid to write for myself: and so Forever Amber was born.
Terry finally had his transplant on December 15th, 2005 – two years to the day we got engaged – receiving a kidney from his brother, John, also known as “Our Hero”.
And me? I kept on blogging – the only difference being that, these days, my blog is read by over 70,000 people per month. Trippy, no?
Pregnancy & Parenthood
I used to consider myself childfree for life, but one day I decided I was tired of getting to sleep as much as I wanted and wear clothes without spit-up on them, so I had a baby. Yes, it surprised me too, to be honest.
Baby Max was born by elective c-section in December 2017, after one miscarriage, one ectopic pregnancy, and a lifetime’s worth of health anxiety and tokophobia. I wrote a pregnancy diary for every week of my pregnancy, and turned it into a book in 2019.
I firmly believe in the importance of being honest about parenthood, which is why my blog covers topics like all the things I miss about life before children, and what parents REALLY think at soft play, as well as the more traditional mummy blog topics, like the ultimate list of toddler essentials, and our favourite books to read before bedtime.
The Awkward Girl’s Guide to Life
I’ve lived with anxiety for most of my adult life – and I’ve been an awkward girl pretty much since I was born, really.
Here on the blog, I’ve written openly about my struggles with health anxiety (Which was hugely exacerbated by the Coronavirus pandemic), tokophobia and misophonia, and I also frequently write about what it’s like being an introvert in a world of extroverts, plus all of the random acts of awkwardness I tend to commit on a near-daily basis.
Why do I do all of this? Er, mostly so people can laugh at me, really, but also because I know there are lots of people out there who are just like me – and if even one of those people can feel a little bit more “normal” as a result of reading my posts, then it’s worth all of the embarrassment.
When I first started blogging, I used to write totally openly about absolutely everything that happened to me: which, in retrospect, probably wasn’t the best idea, all things considered. These days I still write honestly about my life, but I’ve learned that it’s wise to keep some things private – which is why I started a Patreon Page.
This members-only Patreon community is my place to share all of my secrets, plus the stories I wasn’t able to publish here on the blog, for one reason or another. Click here for instant access, and a behind-the-scenes, unfiltered look at life as a full-time blogger and first time mum.